I'm sorry for the late post. I hadn't had time to re-read everything until now. And also I was trying to figure out what the right answer for this solo task might be.
That leads me to the first realization I want to share. I am the kind of student who likes to give the correct answers and tell people what they want to hear. The idea that whatever I notice is valuable in its own way has never occurred to me before. I felt guilty for not knowing the color of the tie and told myself "you should've paid more attention". I do that as a teacher as well. For example, when some of my young learners have a conflict and I was focusing on something else and didn't notice it until it's a big problem, I chastise myself for not being aware of every single thing that's happening in my classroom.
That brings me to my second realization, and I think other participants have said something similar: I know how to be very descriptive when looking at someone else's class or transcript, but when it comes to my own I am full of "should've"s. Also, my posts included a lot of judgments. It is a challenge to sit down with one A4 page of transcript and just count how many words and how many correct and incorrect words without also thinking in terms of "too much" or "not enough".
Meanwhile, the videos and transcripts don't include judgments or jargon. We add those things as we interpret and analyze.
That leads me to the first realization I want to share. I am the kind of student who likes to give the correct answers and tell people what they want to hear. The idea that whatever I notice is valuable in its own way has never occurred to me before. I felt guilty for not knowing the color of the tie and told myself "you should've paid more attention". I do that as a teacher as well. For example, when some of my young learners have a conflict and I was focusing on something else and didn't notice it until it's a big problem, I chastise myself for not being aware of every single thing that's happening in my classroom.
That brings me to my second realization, and I think other participants have said something similar: I know how to be very descriptive when looking at someone else's class or transcript, but when it comes to my own I am full of "should've"s. Also, my posts included a lot of judgments. It is a challenge to sit down with one A4 page of transcript and just count how many words and how many correct and incorrect words without also thinking in terms of "too much" or "not enough".
Meanwhile, the videos and transcripts don't include judgments or jargon. We add those things as we interpret and analyze.
Yes the videos do not contain judgements, the few of any in the world that do not.
ReplyDeleteOf course it can be a challenge to not judge ourselves but as you start to do it it is not so much of a challenge.
Thrilled I am that your moving away from the idea that there is a right answer. Not easy since the world is se up to require so called right answers.
I tried to avoid Jargon and Judgements. A few might have slipped in.
Cheers.
Anne, thank you for your observations! You are so right to notice how hard we are on ourselves. It was not until recently that I had realized that I'm in a constant search for the right answer or for the right step not only in my teaching but in my life as well. Not surprisingly, when our mind is focused solely on searching for one and the only correct solution we miss out on seeing the broader picture and peculiar details.
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